Im Bad At Tests

Warning this might be boring.

Hi Guys

So lets just say i'm bad at tests I get stressed I cry and I have panic attacks. Now a lot of people embrace anxiety with open arms let it become who they are and like to brag about it. Now its weird because it's like anxiety has become a trend and something cool so when someone says to me "I wish I had anxiety, it's cool" now no one knows I have anxiety except for two friends and my parents and of course my therapist but this girl really set me off I was appalled by the thought of someone wanting to have this baggage 24/7 that  stops you from doing some amazing things.

Anyway back to the point I had a big math test and I did terrible in it! Now not terrible like I got 10 out of 100 but terrible for me, I am pretty good at maths but a certain girl shook me that day because of what she said Ireally stressed and I ended up having 3 panic attacks on that day (right before the test).

When I got my mark I went to the bathroom and vomited, I felt terrible about myself so the next day I organised a meeting with my math teacher. Before I even said a word he said to me "don't worry iv'e already talked to the head of the math department" I was stunned by this, he then went on to say that he'd put me in a high class.

When our conversation had ended I ran to my friends and jumped up and down in excitement and might have let out a small squeal. But one of my friends did not seem to excited about it because I would have most likely been in her class but because I moved up it was now unlikely.

But i'm just so happy my teacher already knew and put me in a high class

OK thanks for reading if anyone is
See ya next time
xox

Why be homophobic??

Hello

I'm really having fun writing this blog and to be honest, don't really care if no one reads it.

So lets talk about something a little more serious, today whilst on my bus my friend was talking about gay's in general, to my other friend and all was fine until my friend(... wait this is getting confusing lets say my best friend is called Stew my other friend is called frizzy), OK so as I was saying frizzy then says to Stew and "yeah I hate gays". OK lets get this straight people in my family are gay you are saying you hate my some of my family without even knowing any of their name's. For me personally, I don't care if your my best friend or even my mum that is not OK!

I don't think many people realise that 20 years ago hardly anyone would have accepted gays, 10 years ago a small fraction now majority of the world accepts them. I don't get how you don't see this its obvious the world is changing and you either accept it or get left behind in a ditch!. Yes if your wondering I did say that to her face I was very annoyed.

From a person who has a family member that's gay and he lived with us for a while, and I for a fact know he suffered cause he was worried no one would except him if he came out. He vomited up his food and didn't eat because he was suffering from depression and anxiety. When he went back home (we live in different countries) he told his mum first and she simply said " I know" I think most of my family knew by that point but no one told him, because we knew he'd tell us once he'd excepted it himself.

He's happy now and i'm sorry but he has no need to suffer anymore and hear that people hate him because guess what. You don't know them, you don't deserve to know them. This person who hasn't even met him let alone know my cousin has already said she hated him. And to me that's basically saying you hate me too. Because if you know me you know my family means a whole lot too me. And most of them have gone through there fair share of disgusting and terrible stuff, being in the past and present. 

Also may I add that frizzys friend is Gay (lets call her sing song) and she's not telling frizzy because and I quote "If I find out one of my friends are gay we wont be friends anymore", to me that's sick, and for that I am no longer her friend I will never be friends with someone who is mean to my family or my friends.

Sorry this is a bit less happy than the normal

And thanks for reading if anybody actually is,

I hope you stick around but if not BYE!

Love Nixie xox

Marvel obsession

Hi everybody

OK so everybody seems to say "oh yeah I love marvel movies especially like oh you know that god.... um he has a blonde hair" and then theirs me oh yeah do you mean Thor his name is Chris Hemsworth the father of three he is married age 33 born august 11th 1983 Melbourne Australia and I know this about every avenger and most marvel characters.

I think I have a problem like a big PROBLEM! If you feel the same way please tell me IM SO ALONE IN THIS WORLD ok ha ha thanks for reading if anyone actually is and see you  next time bye.

P.S if you say i'm weird think about this do you have a crush on and character who hasn't killed anyone? No you do not!

Caring too much

Hi guys

About three or four days ago I went to a music lesson meaning I had to leave during a class. As I was opening the door I pushed the door instead of pull as I exited when I closed the door the teacher said Oh My God how blonde can you get (I am not blonde). Once my friend told me she said this at the time I didn't really mind but the more the day went on and the more I thought about it. I have social anxiety I care a lot about what people think about me and probably more than what I think about myself.  

Anyway she said this in front of the whole class, I would have expected it from a student but a teacher? Aren’t they supposed to be the people to stop that sort of stuff not create it. Please tell me if i’m overreacting or you would react the same way.

Thanks for reading (if anyone is actually reading this lol)

Christmas is soo far away

Hello 

So even though it is no where near Christmas (much to my disappointment) iv'e realized as you get older and older Christmas becomes just another day in the year. When you were younger you were so excited for Christmas you couldn't even get to sleep and in the morning you'd wake the whole family up so you could open your presents. Now it's kind of like oh its Christmas 10 more minutes in bed than I suppose ill get up. Decorating the house becomes a chore and everyone's just not bothered. 

This is the first year in many where I am really excited, I have been watching non-stop Christmas films even though its only August and iv'e already pre-ordered Christmas decorations. I'm just so excited for it. 

It could be because my whole family hasn't been together for nearly four years and we normally do it at my house and this year its all going back to normal which I am very excited about. 

Christmas films you need to watch when it's christmas (or if your like me and cant wait so you watch them now)

• Elf
• The Grinch
• It's a wonderful life (I cried...)
• The Santa clause
• home alone
• Arthur Christmas
• Polar Express
• The Muppet Christmas Carol
• Frosty the snowman
• Nightmare before christmas
• Jack Frost

Boyfriends

Boyfriend's
HI!
OK this is a weird topic but as I said I was going to tell the truth about everything I write so here we go!

I was at a camp not so long ago and there were two girls in the same lodge as me and they both had boyfriends (there is nothing wrong with that) but they started to say to me "oh my god you haven't got a boyfriend, and you have never had a boyfriend" I was so confused. Why do I need a boyfriend?, it's just I don't feel the need to have one. 

So here's 6 reasons why boyfriends are over rated.

Why boyfriends are over rated
1. You can't crush over famous people you've never met without them getting paranoid. (We know we cant get them but why do you need to put limits on our dreams?)

2. I have lots of friends that are boys and I don't need a boyfriend getting jealous.

3. What if my parents don't like him what do I do then? do I side with my boyfriend or my parents?

4. You've always got to look your very best, meaning make up and makeup is expensive. You cant just go in sweatpants and a jumper with a pimply face. (much to my disgrace)

5. If your that young there is only 2 ways its going to ending either marriage or heart break and most the time it will end in heart break (unless your Hermione and Ron)

6.  And finally how much effort! it's too hard!!

Of course this only applies if your under like 17, but if your 17 and dont have a boyfriend, WHO CARES?

I've always thought that maybe every other girl on the world thinks this as well, we just don't know if anyone else feels the same and one day well all realize that everyone feels the same, and they wont be peer pressured into getting a boyfriend anymore.

Thanks for reading (if anyone is actually reading) if you are tell me in the comments and let me know if you feel the same!

My Start

Hi! So iv'e decided to start a blog! 

Why you might ask?

Well I guess I have so much to say but I lack one thing confidence so that's why this blog will be anonymous. So I can say anything I want without saying it at all. I could easily write a diary but the thought of writing to myself seemed a bit pointless, I already know my thoughts. I want to feel like someone who ever that might be, will be able to read what I might say. 

So that's why I gave this blog ago.
So I had a thought maybe this can be a small part of the internet where ill be writing what I want to right and I think it will be really cool if you were to join me.

What I really love to do is take photos, Isn't it strange how photos can freeze anything and everything in a certain moment and that moment will be with you forever to make sure you don't forget it. I also love baking so be prepared to see tons of pictures of cupcakes with yummy frosting and gooey cookies. But obviously there will be no pictures of me for anonymity reasons.

So that's all for now. Thanks for reading (if anyone in the world actually is reading) and if you are please let me know what you think.